Hmmm,

I have come to terms that I will never be with the person I was potentially made for. It may sound myopic, but under the circumstances and how long I've waited, it is completely realistic. When I think about the actuality of it all, it does not make me sad... I guess for about these past three years I've kind of always known he was to happy with her and not happy enough with me. It is not a heartbroken feeling, it's more of a numb feeling. I've never found anyone that has surpassed his ability to make me smile for hours straight. As it does sound like it, this post is most certainly not about him. It is about me, not being able to find that someone who has my head spinning with euphoria, for the smallest of reasons. I guess you could say I am searching for perfection, I found him, and now he's gone


*Cassie I know you feel the same way
**I really hope I do not regret writing this post later.